Am I drinking enough water so that I can keep my body hydrated? Well, I can answer this one with a resounding NO right now. I ran a spontaneous 10K this morning and not only did I not hydrate at all yesterday, but I also failed to even bring a fuel belt. That added to the fact that they did not have enough water stops meant that I had one of my most difficult runs in a while on a fairly flat course.
How about sleep--am I getting the 7 hours minimum a body needs to rest and heal? Not doing that one either right now. I am staying up late working and then getting up early to get out and play before I head off for another day of work--I am lucky if I get 5 hours each night. I refuse to skip my workouts because then I don't have the energy anyway to make it through the day.
Regarding taking my supplements, I am doing so about half the time now, which is better than the entire month I skipped them. Minimizing stress, focusing on the positives, having a goal that I am working toward to keep me accountable, tracking the food I put in my mouth...do you see what I mean about all the moving parts that work together to make a healthier me?
Now here's where I need to pop in and clear something up. I am actually in a really good place right now. I know some of my friends and readers have been concerned about me being too harsh on myself. I may come across in my blogs as if I am beating myself up and minimizing the huge progress I have made over the years. I am an Ironwoman after all, and that was a huge accomplishment!
What I would like everyone to understand is that I share the good, the bad, and the ugly because I want you all to understand that you are not alone. We all feel inadequate at times. Very few of us have the time needed to keep all the moving parts or maintain all the balls in the air, and that's okay. Being perfect is not possible, and all we need to do is do our very best to stay healthy.
I was listening to one of Jillian Michael's blogs last week entitled Setbacks and she was sharing something to the effect of people being doomed to repeat the same mistakes if they don't figure out why they make those mistakes in the first place. I am starting to think that I may be sliding backwards a bit because I have still not fully learned that I need to love myself no matter what the outside of my body looks like. I need to love the strong legs and arms and all the fluffy, rolly parts in between. She also shared that we should focus on the progress and not on perfect. She pointed out that no matter how far you get, there will always be setbacks that will pop up in your life. If you beat yourself up because of these setbacks, you are minimizing all the incredible changes and progress that you have made.
I want you all to understand that I know that I am amazing--and I don't mean that in the conceited, self-centered way. What I mean by amazing is that I am a kind and giving person, I am a the best mom and wife I can be, I inspire others to make changes in their lives because of the changes I have made, and I am an Ironwoman, damn it!
I am amazing, but I am not perfect. And this is why in some of my blogs I share the times I get down on myself. I don't want anyone to think that once you reach one of your major goals that there will not be setbacks along the way. There will be roadblocks, but don't let them derail everything you have worked so hard to achieve. Going back to the juggling analogy, it would be like dropping one ball and then dropping all the others because you now don't have the perfect juggling performance. Keep juggling and realize how amazing it is that you can juggle in the first place.