Next, I decided that if it was raining, I would go back to bed. My brain was thinking, "I am not really sure the pool is even open on rainy days--I don't want to get too wet." In addition, I have to drive 20 minutes to get to the local recreation center to swim. What if I went all that way and it was closed due to inclement weather? So I walked outside to check the weather, and not only was it not raining, the ground was absolutely bone dry. Why, oh why was mother nature not cooperating with my intense need to skip swimming and go back to bed? Excuse #2 down.
At this point I was going for the big guns. Okay, if my weight had gone up over the last week, then I would absolutely have to go and work off the extra weight. So I stepped on the scale, and I had actually lost a fraction of a pound. Technically I could go back to bed now, right? The problem was that at this point I was completely awake, and my brain was realizing what I was trying to do. So I reluctantly put on my swimsuit and forced myself to go do my swim workout. Excuse #3 averted.
And while I don't often make excuses for my training, I am a master at convincing myself that it is okay to eat food that is not good for me. It is really easy these days to justify why it is okay for me to have something sweet like chocolate or ice cream, or to tell myself it is okay to choose french fries instead of fruit. With all of my training I am losing inches, and for the first time in two years, I am even losing a few pounds. I am at the lowest I have been in probably twenty years. That's why my brain is telling me it is okay to have butter on my toast, to indulge in some fried foods, and even to put chocolate, which is a major trigger food for me, into my mouth.
In addition, I am burning lots of calories with these double workouts, so I am really hungry all the time. These days I almost think I know what it feels like to be a ravenous teenage boy. I will eat a meal, and one hour later I will be hungry. Again my brain is using this as an excuse for me to make bad choices--you burned a lot of calories, your hungry, so it won't hurt you to eat those mini Snickers bars, Hot Tamales, or a bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch.
The other truth is, I should be eating more food. I am working out 1-3 hours a day six days a week, and my body needs more fuel to replenish what I burn. However, I should be eating lots of lean protein, veggies, fruits, and whole grains instead of replacing the calories with sugar, unhealthy fat, and empty calories. Don't get me wrong, my friends will tell you that I am the one that almost always brings a healthy breakfast and lunch with me to work, so I do eat healthy food most of the time. The problem is that sometimes I eat crap in addition to or instead of the healthy meals I bring. I need to remind myself than thinner does not mean healthier if I don't make good food choices.
So in the coming weeks I will be watching what I put into my mouth to ensure that it will be a healthy fuel for my body. No more excuses for making bad choices, no more excuses to get out of swimming, and no more using junkie foods to supplement my calories needs. In a revised version of an old Weight Watcher inspirational quote, "Nothing tastes as good as a healthy and flabulous me feels!" NO EXCUSES!